~For Everything I Could~

our life is never ever be at d same level. it always up n down. that is d law of life. u can never find anyone in this world constantly happy…or constantly sad…even the rich guy that have million trillion of dollars, happiness obviously cant get  with money..everybody agree with that..even for a poor person dun need any cents to be happy..it’s the matter of urself. how u take or absorb any single thing that happened to u. maybe u are having a fun party with frens and ur loves one, a moment later, something that will hurts u would happen. always remember life never be predicted. yeah of course at that moment u will feel that u don’t deserve to live in this world. everything seems sorrow and dark. feels like u are alone in this world. nobody beside u. suddenly u feel like ur life switched off like when in a room at night, u switch off d light.. even u feel darker and there’s seems no hope for u to solve it. d time ticking like a small lil drop of water. u cant wait 4 d time to pass..but in other hand, while u having problems or in depression, there’s still happiness for u. soon or later, u will find way out.. like suddenly u get an eternal power.. u can control everything..everything is in your hands..even its easier when u have someone to fall back to..d one that support u in any problems u facing to. d strength dat u would never imagine will get to u in any time…then everything can be settled..soon or later..

hurrmmm…it’s been awhile since my last time wrote something in here..life lately kinda busy with everything…study,assignment, n etc…my health also turn upside down left n right going on circle..everything seems not ok…sometimes i feel like full of energy, but suddenly after few moments, i feel like having fever and my mood totally down..my head always killing me..feel heavy n painful…its very tiring..i wish i could stop the time and have as much rest as i want..but frankly speaking, i feel totally different if there’s one person beside me..whether im feeling ok or not, everything seems on the right track again…all the work going smoothly..i regain my energy back…feeling so strong…not feeling any sickness..i’m still wondering how it comes to me…only one thing that i noe..dat’s being around with dat person…so i could do all my work even my drawings that i hate the most in my entire life…studying and everything around her seem easy to me…tho sometimes i feel forced to do,but it’s a good thing for me right…instead, im happy with that..and hope i will always and continuously get the support again and again..only that i can ask…thought  its way too far but that’s the only thing that i need the most..i need it forever..

yaiy..
another beatiful day for me to go through..hurmm early morning woke up with lil dissapointment cause there’s no water in the hostel..should go to gather for palapes some more..huh so tensed up..so decided not to go..hehe…wat i did??i was riding my bike…go back to my house…haha..took shower then come back to utm again..hihih..ermm on way back, i received a massage from another part of me..suddenly changed her mind to take IXP test today..i’m about to stop at CICT to do d test but go to meet her n help her on the test..at last she passed..yaiy~ ..makes me happy when she was jumping *up and down* ..sigh~

ermm as usual, assignments are waiting for me to caressing them..gosh i wish i could have million amounts of energy…so i could stay for days doing all my works..its so tiring..

opps my stomach calling me alrdy..time to makan..see i wish i dun have to waste my time eating…

haha…
how to start this..
ermm im feeling the most relieve in the world at this moment..
WHY??
because i’ve passed the IXP test…
in about 3hours with my empty stomach samo..wallau..
full of pressured,tense and sucks feelings…
but i managed to passed..hehe..
KUDOS to me..
*clap…clap..clap*
haha…

yaiy…
maybe some of u doesnt noe wat the crap is that..but for those who in AIESEC, it’s really a tough test..can kill u in anytime during the test..
the test that need passion,patient,confident,knowledge and everything about AIESEC..

huh..
kinda tiring..

ermmm not to forget to thanked all my frens for d coooperations,helps and all..
im sure without u guys, ill be nowhere to passed this test..
thanks again..

here some tips for those who goin to sit the test..
read up ur notes..
understand every single word the crappy things they talking about…
drag ur frens those are passed alrdy..
(but make sure they’re useful…hehe…)

alright…
i think dat’s all for AIESEC thingy..

there’re many things in this world u should discover. externally n internally. the God created this world for us to live in. for us to find out what ‘life’ is all about. in the journey of life, u’ll discover lots of things that u couldn’t imagine.

one of them is when u feel very special. d feeling that u think u are on top of the world. dat’s the feelings that make u think again why u live in this world. what ur purpose to be here. that’s when u feels everything are meant to u. it make u feels that everything in this world are created for u. the world is belong to u. it makes ur every single day with new resolutions. ur days seems brighter and brighter.. every moment u’re looking forward to seeing someone in ur heart. u would do anything to see the sweet smiles curved on the face.

the sacrifices that u do, u would never imagine to do that before. u’ll never give up. somehow u noe that anything u did are worth it all. appreciation that u feels make u want to do more and more and more sacrifices because u getting understand what and why u doing that. u won’t bother about yourself anymore. unless u’re with d one in ur heart everything seems right. in any ways, u feels that it’ll b easier to been thru together.how difficult it is, when he/she’s around u, d tasks can easily b done. that’s when the moment u’ll appreciate the most. up and down with d one are the best things in the world to be..

there are moments when u happy. there are moments when u sad.that’s how life goes on.we cant control.its out of our hands.it only happens by its own. these few days seems all the problems come to me.one after another.not even give me chance to settle one by one.i feel the whole entire world smacked on my face.its really hard time to be.life never be easy!!
give up??
what will happen if we give up in our live??will all the problems settle??
somehow we have to face it.how difficult it is we have to go on.is there any devices that can turn back time??there are lots of things i wanna change in my life. i regretted with my life………

Two days chasing me around
I go crazy when you’re outside of my world
When you’re outside of my world
No sounds singing me to sleep

I don’t want the room to breathe
Just be with me…
Just be with me!

I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone.
I feel the same thing always happens when you’re gone
And i know you’re just around the corner
But just around the corner is not enough
It’s not enough

My eyes are waiting at the door
Just like every time before
Time flies so slow…
Time flies so slow!

I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone.
I feel the same thing always happens when you’re gone
And i know you’re just around the corner
But just around the corner is not enough
It’s not enough

It’s not enough, I don’t know why
It’s not enough, I miss you all the time
And I know you kinds like it.

I feel.. yea.. 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone.
I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone.
I feel the same thing always happens when you’re gone
I know you’re just around the corner
But just around the corner is not enough

"Why the person u loves the most, u hurt the most" I’ve heard this phrase few times. before this i don’t take it as what its means.it only bare words to speak out. but when u really face in reality, u’ll understand. it feels like u’re d worst person in diz world. u’re totally useless. can’t even imagine how it’ll feels. u’re hurting yourself by doing that. yeah maybe u dun realize it. seriously, none of any works that u doing seems right.
there are something that chasing u. to let u noe that u made the most stupid things in ur life. but as a normal human,we always made mistakes. just the matter of we take it as a lesson n try to improve our life or we just forget about it n might be repeating the mistake in the future which is for sure not a good path to choose. sometimes it is too late for u to regret it. but as u learn from that, without realizing it, u become a better person.my apologizes goes to whoever i’ve hurt.especially to the person i love the most.

YEAH!!!!!!!

today i only ave 2classes..but pg td lecturer x msok..so now im free…hehehe..diz semester my schedule full of empty space…so relaxing…so enjoyable..juz 13 credit hours..can u imagine???hihihi…its not like i am lazy or wanna honeymoon o sumthin..its not what i’ve imagined either… but it already scheduled 4 me by PENTADBIRAN…so i think i juz follow dat particular things…beside my sis n my PA also advised me to follow dat things..no need to add more subject..so i guess i can score well diz sem…hope so..so far i only learn engineerin math..luckily i could catch up..d other subjects, either d lecturers didnt come up or they juz chatt with us..sumtimes its kinda bored..but it gives me a lot of time to do anything…hehehe..bleh relax..so i guess diz way would b better..hikhik..nmpak sgt kepemalasannya….actually im trying to activate diz e-learning things but dari td xboley..da naik bosan dahh…its kinda important here…so by hook or by crook i have to activate it…huh…